Psalm 27:4.. and then some.

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked advance against me
to devour[a] me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident.

4 One thing I ask from the LORD,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock.

6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.

7 Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.

13 I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.

I found this today while doing my quiet time.. It's been a rough week with work and all. I keep on getting ridiculed for my love and faith in God.. But What shall I fear?? Nothing! God is so good to me. Why can't just see that God will never betray us? No matter what we "struggle" with or "tamper with" God is consistently there for us, arms stretched out as far as the eye can see saying I LOVE YOU! DO NOT RUN! I LOVE YOU! Permeate our souls God.. Allow us to KILL death with your ever lasting light and LOVE.. beating fire with HOLY fire, who do think will win? MORE LORD.

Where have I been?

I'm seeking,
but I'm falling?
I'm running,
but I'm walking?
I dwell with you,
but I dwell with the evil one?
How do I stay consistently in Your Presence?
by filling my itunes with worship?
by memorizing the few verses every one knows?
How do I keep an authentic spirit that kills the pleasing spirit I've been cursed with?
I can't focus..
I can't focus..
Should I be afraid to go to church because I screwed up?
It's not You not healing me..
It's me ripping out the stitches you've places in my heart.
It's me picking my baggage back up.
The thing that I desperately need to be of riddance,
is the thing that I desperately need to keep me sane.
Scratch that..
It's the thing that I need to hide me from You,
I am afraid of healing.
I am afraid of change.
I am afraid of transparency.
Well..
GET OVER IT.
c'mon.
Why raise my hands in the morning,
then tuck them in at night?
TAKE IT.
HAVE IT.
haha- I'm done with it.